Alive or Dead It’s the Same Thing

I’ve held on too long
Still it’s far from what I deserve
Through the rise and fall I’ve been there all along
Time & time again I sacrifice
What to me should have belonged?
If it stays like this forever
What the fuck is this life for?

I’m just a slave to my crave
Am just too above from what they say
And as my love on a platter lay
To be refused once again

Cyanide flowing through my veins
And as it reaches my heart
For the last time could I see your pretty face
Ephedrine rushing to the centre
Crying out in vain
“Take it out or just wear pretty lace”

And when I’m gone you’ll be a contusion on my grave
The funeral jag I wish for you to come along not lag
Behind, we’d be together forever
Dead better than asleep ever, my love
Alive I never had a trust
I’ll never make you cry now, fill another cup with that liquid
You screeched “You ain't no friend of mine!
For what you’ve done, pay the price!
So let me be and go die..”

I’ve been naïve to what you say
It ends with me having to go away
And for my dying wish
How about washing my lips away.

Cyanide flowing through my veins
And as it reaches my heart
For the last time could I see your pretty face
Ephedrine rushing to the centre
Crying out in vain
“Take it out or just wear pretty lace” [X2]

Still don’t get it? I love you more every time
Now leave me alone so I can sleep and die, die ,die…(fades)